UNDER RENOVATION

i fucking hate thursdayyyy

2010-02-04T23:03:00.002+08:00

Thursday is like the worst day for me, freaking hate it. Its like i spend so many thursdays emoing.. Ahhh life sucks.

Going to be gone for a long long long time, i dunno, but suddenly these surge of emotions hit me again. This sucky feeling is back, but i somehow like it, i dunoo why..

Im going to miss everything so badly, only when your close to losing something will you tend to treasure it.. Those two times when i lied, i dunno, if i said the truth then will everything be different? I wonder..

holland v, msn. :((

regret??

2010-01-12T13:25:00.002+08:00

This sucks, im rotting at home...

Open house today, i really wanna go, but i jus cant bring myself to do so. Weird that i don't even dare to do something like that. I dunno, it might be my last chance to see you, but the thought of it just sucks. The thought of not seeing you ever again, i just cant take it.

Even if i did go, i dunno how everything will be like.. Awkward again? A facade?

really miss you, but seeing you again will make me miss you even more.
and so, i run...

2010-01-08T23:00:00.001+08:00

i am so damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damnnn damnnnnnn damnnnnnnn damnnnnnnnnnn damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn sad.

back to (1)²

2010-01-08T15:24:00.002+08:00

Words cant describe how im feeling now.. Must all good things really come to an end? Everything was like a fantasy at first, happily "in love". How i wish nothing changed, and that we were still what we were when we first met. Somehow i regret saying those things i said, if i didnt maybe all these shit wouldn't hav happened? I wonder... if we can still retrace the steps we took..

Even if things must end, why can't ours just be liked the rest, everything seems so awkward now, maybe i should just make u hate me. I know that's being stupid but i can't tank any of these shit any longer. We used to joke about how our "love" can overcome all obstacles, but all that was just talk. Seeing how things are now, its really, really hard to start all over again.

I doubt i will dare to make the first move again. I will just sit here and wonder, if you'll ever understand how much of me belongs to you, because i do..

goodbye is never painful, unless you know your never going to say hi again...

it's time

2009-05-17T00:47:00.001+08:00

i guess, its time. time for me to move on.

bm

2009-05-02T21:58:00.002+08:00

seriously i don't know why im wasting all my time away instead of focusing on A levels. i get so pre-occupied with unreleated stuffs which is making me feel so miserable. i should just give up on everything i guess.

i'm not angry because i'm angry, and sad. you use such absolute terms mercilessly. always it shall be then.

bm

2009-04-25T00:45:00.002+08:00

maybe the time is now...

im not trying to ignore you or anything but i just have to. i tried once before but i failed, so im trying it again. the feeling sucks but it cant be help, i just have to endure because it seems to be the best option.

all these while, i never once tried to start anything, all i did was to hope. i knew it would be impossible but i didnt mind, because i once said, your worth the wait. all i ever wish for was for things to remain the way it seems, nothing special. the feeling i had was way better than winning poker or anything and i never did asked for more, i was sastisfied. but i guess its best to make it clear, so that i can stop living in my self-deluding world.

im lost without you.

2008-12-29T09:22:00.002+08:00

time is merciless, once past, its over...
there's no return, no second chance

confused at first, reluctant to move on, time got wasted away
its not tat im not making a move or anything, i jus needed time to think.

now that i've thought it through,
ready to take the first step,
you seem to have drifted away.

emmooo

2008-11-21T12:05:00.002+08:00

just came back from the airport... she'll be gone for one month! arghs, this sucks. but its ok cos i'll get more gifts when she's back (:

for now... emo for 1 month!

yesterday dinner! 3 surprises!!! it was damm damm damm cool!
firstly, BM arrived... i was like OMG! wads she doing here?!?! i was like speechless!
until they said this was not my surprise den i went oh...

5 mins later suddenly some1 covered my eyes. i jumped!
"guess who"
wa lau, your voice so unique, i hear i know who alr la! but i was damm shock + stun + surprise + HAPPY!
you guys are all scammers! haha, but it was a really nice surprise.

at the end, louis came in FBT! WHOA, this one is surprising + dunno wad to say. haha was damm funny.

thanks for the wallettt!

thanks for the paper clip!

facil

2008-11-08T17:42:00.002+08:00

life's really unfair. it always has been, for me, for you. some things just can't be help, although u tried, things might not turn out well. sometimes you're jus unlucky i guess, but you can't do anything bout it.

although i became a facil, it was jus like how i got into cjc. i had to appeal? re-interview with tan js...
i should be happy, but im not... its jus isn't fair to see frens who really wanted to become a facil, to not get it.

facil's just one thing...
some had really tried, put in those hours of efforts but their efforts just didnt pay off. its sucks to see how some scrape through while those we deserve it doesn't...

its always like this...

you've got one more try, don't screw it up.

2008-10-22T20:06:00.002+08:00

hmmm maybe its time for me to grow up. haha i bet if one day any of you guys read this, you will surely agree... when that day comes, i would have become more mature, i hope... (:

i guess i made it, barely... told you guys im not some closet mugger... now my results proved that.
glad i made it though, but i really hope all of us can promote together.

..

2008-10-09T17:01:00.001+08:00

everything sucks.
thanks alot

lannn

2008-09-15T23:06:00.001+08:00

Heheheeee. fun fun, 5 hours of lan today!
5 hours of ownage and pawnage =x

promos DEAD alr...

2008-09-14T12:33:00.001+08:00

seriously... WTF?

SHOPPING!!!

2008-09-11T17:57:00.002+08:00

AHHH, my turn to get triple killed. lol caught by issac lim, mr foo, and tan jek suan...
soon i'll get suspended and shall sit outside the pe office! hahaha

okok i need to go shop for my blanket, torchlight, EXTRA LARGE closet and start mugging!
everyday call me closet mugger, later i really become closet mugger and own yr asses then u all know! haha.

winning eleven, 0 wins, dunno how many losses and draws. stupid ben. lol

i love raining days...

2008-09-08T22:07:00.003+08:00

its raining now... and im loving it.

raining days, especially at night are the best. it let me know, im not the only one tearing, the world is crying too. hahaa... you can cry your heart out, because the sound of rain will drown away those sounds, so that nobody can hear you crying. the sound of thunder let you know, your not alone.
lightning, brightens up the sky, and it brings you brightness, hope, when all around you seem to be darkness.

rain more please...

.

2008-09-04T18:15:00.002+08:00

Is it me, or did i just wasted four days straight...

I can't just seem to focus, im so easily distracted. I keep telling myself that im going to study today, but that just don't seem to be happening. Days after days, im making no progress. Maybe i myself chose to be distracted, because it seem to be able to take my mind off things, to not think of things... Distraction is an easy solution to problems...

I really can't be bothered bout promos, maybe getting retain isn't all that bad. I had always wanted to attend cjc's orientation...

So, im not some closet mugger boy...

2008-08-07T20:32:00.001+08:00

Wishing you a happy birthday...

It's over.

2008-07-28T21:14:00.002+08:00

I guess we finally settle everything. Thanks.

Perhaps, this is the best for the both of us. What you did i know, was the best for me.
I'm really glad i met you, because you changed me, you gave me sweet memories, bittersweet memories perhaps. But i never regretted any of this.

Times spent with you was truly unforgettable, you made me felt loved. I'll always remember you, for being there for me when i need you, and also because your my first true love. Thanks.

If i have hurt you in anyway, for making you shit about yourself, I'm sorry. Just take care of yourself, make the right decision, because i won't be there for you anymore. <3>

If only, if only, i could turn time around, I'll make everything PERFECT, for you.

My Fingers Crossed

2008-07-27T23:46:00.003+08:00

I can never imagine... That counting down, could be so torturing.
Till 12am, that's when I'll make my decision.

I have never regretted any of this.

You shall always be my first love. FOREVER <3>

PTM = GG

2008-07-19T16:27:00.001+08:00

OMG, my teacher is seriously a BITCH!!!

First said my results not tat good, when its ok...
Next said i always am distracted in class, playing my psp.

SO NOT TRUE OK!
im a good boy (:

hahaha my mum's logic, a stupid boy is a obedient boy.
because a stupid boy will just follow instructions...

GUESS I'M SMART (:

I'm missing you.

2008-07-17T20:34:00.001+08:00

Cold War really sucks. Its the second day already. I can't wait for this to end, so everything will be back to normal.
Attempted appeasement today, it kinda work! :)

SOON OKIE <3

Clique 5 (:

2008-07-15T21:23:00.004+08:00

PICTURES!

Before PE.

After PE :)

HAHA DJ MAX SHALL BE OUR DAILY ENTERTAINMENT IN CLASS!
BOMBERMAN TOO!

Verge of breaking down.

2008-07-15T21:14:00.003+08:00

My my eyes are sore, my heart hurts. I just got to be strong and wait.

Thank you clique 5 for being there for me.

Today isn't the best of days. Just some random comments, some random stuffs i saw, made me emo.

During GP, just jokingly said to ben, "what mine is yours baby"
And that just did it.

I should had skip chinese, but no, i went.
Saw some random piece of paper, look at it, and just broke down.
Thanks ben for understanding.

At least now i know what's the problem.

A day to remeber.

2008-04-07T21:11:00.001+08:00

7 April 2008.

New BLOG

2006-10-29T13:05:00.000+08:00

kekex. well now my blog got head got tail... not perfect but close to perfect xD

yup i wana thank those who help me in making my blog come true. my sis and jollyn. thankyou!

Well i dun really now why i wana start a blog.

Maybe firstly, if im engross in blogging, i might not spend so much time on gaming, and i will not be a hardcore gamer >< i used to spend close to 24/7 juz on gaming during the hols, skipping breakfast and lunch and juz spend my time on the computer. i tried not to be so hardcore but once i start to play, i juz cant seem to stop. its like walking into eternal darkness....

Blogging seem to be working. total time spend on gaming on saturday, only 2 hours. compared to the normal 15 hours? wow....

now for a more noble cause..... to send my message out to the other hardcore gamers xD once in a while its alright to play. But once u find that u are beginning to lose interest in whatever you do, like studdying T.T, chatting and stuff, and gaming seems to be the only thing in yr mind, yr screwed =).
GIVE UP GAMING OR YR A GONER....

why blog ah... my frens all got blog so i juz try try make one lo. simple as that xD my first official post, inexperience dunno wad to write so dun blame me ah.

sial la... i continue like this my eng A1....

2006-10-27T22:23:00.000+08:00

weeeeeee todae i went out! quite fun yeh... (recalling in process... written on 29 oct..)

firstly eh i woke up at 8am yup. so i sms charissa to ask her bout the plan... ended waking her up from her beauty sleep... T.T really sorry....

i wash up yeh den i started gaming ><. juz for a short while but it had devastating effect... my eyes turned bloody red. so i faster stop playing and bathe. all ready and i went out...

juz as i entered the mrt, charissa told me that she will be late and dun go so soon... arx. Being a gentleman i am, i told her i dun mind waiting xD i reach orchard mrt and waited awhile, 40 min? yep den she took a taxi, (thank you!)

i followed her to send her phone for repair, yeh after that we went for pepper lunch... haha lesslie wasnt there to finish up her food...

Yeh so now we suppose go find weekang and clare. now they had to wait for us hehe.... after meeting up le we took de underpass and headed to paradigm. EEEEEEE clare and charissa purposely hold their hand!!! like EWWWWW. coz weekang told clare bout their "plan", if weekang see 2 gurls holding their hand, he will find a guy and purposely hold hand and walk in front of those 2 gurls...

Ended up me and weekang hold hands T.T those gurls really evil! dey hold each other waist after that... weekang and I gave up...

yeh reach paradigm at 2? Then play pool la... saw a few other SJI ppl. i got trashed by Charissa. Told u i suk =(. Played till ard 5 or 6 i think.

yes aft tat really thirsty and stuff and we spend quite awhile thinking where to hav a drink. tell then go carefour got free drink they dun wan!
Ended up going to cafe cartel to eat. we ate ice cream. yeh e gurls ate some oreo chocolate ice cream.... charissa sae its like shit those oreo crumbs. =.= but she sae it taste nice... nice shit eh? Me and weekang ordered "lovers paradise".... haha no la jk. we order some strawberry thingy. wa dey eat so little ended up me eat most of it...
oh ya i didnt dao u gurls.... juz that we were dicussing some private stuff.

After that movies. yes the prestige..

we sat like this, ME, Charissa, Clare, Weekang.

yeh so b4 de show i was bored so i look around lo. so i happened to look at weekang and the gurls noticed... they sae what they separating me from weekang??? that im gay?? BOOO. bullies! the show started... ahah poor charissa, clare, weekang didnt understoodED the show. im not that dumb after all. i understoodED it! hehe smart boi, yes complimenting myself..

finally all over at 9. i went home. reach home 10. wash down ?!. slpt. yep tats all....

pardon me...