Tuesday, January 12, 2010 @1:25 PM
This sucks, im rotting at home...Open house today, i really wanna go, but i jus cant bring myself to do so. Weird that i don't even dare to do something like that. I dunno, it might be my last chance to see you, but the thought of it just sucks. The thought of not seeing you ever again, i just cant take it.
Even if i did go, i dunno how everything will be like.. Awkward again? A facade?
really miss you, but seeing you again will make me miss you even more.
and so, i run...
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Friday, January 08, 2010 @11:00 PM
i am so damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damnnn damnnnnnn damnnnnnnn damnnnnnnnnnn damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn sad.
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@3:24 PM
Words cant describe how im feeling now.. Must all good things really come to an end? Everything was like a fantasy at first, happily "in love". How i wish nothing changed, and that we were still what we were when we first met. Somehow i regret saying those things i said, if i didnt maybe all these shit wouldn't hav happened? I wonder... if we can still retrace the steps we took..
Even if things must end, why can't ours just be liked the rest, everything seems so awkward now, maybe i should just make u hate me. I know that's being stupid but i can't tank any of these shit any longer. We used to joke about how our "love" can overcome all obstacles, but all that was just talk. Seeing how things are now, its really, really hard to start all over again.
I doubt i will dare to make the first move again. I will just sit here and wonder, if you'll ever understand how much of me belongs to you, because i do..
goodbye is never painful, unless you know your never going to say hi again...
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