Thursday, February 04, 2010 @11:03 PM
Thursday is like the worst day for me, freaking hate it. Its like i spend so many thursdays emoing.. Ahhh life sucks.
Going to be gone for a long long long time, i dunno, but suddenly these surge of emotions hit me again. This sucky feeling is back, but i somehow like it, i dunoo why..
Im going to miss everything so badly, only when your close to losing something will you tend to treasure it.. Those two times when i lied, i dunno, if i said the truth then will everything be different? I wonder..
holland v, msn. :((
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Tuesday, January 12, 2010 @1:25 PM
This sucks, im rotting at home...Open house today, i really wanna go, but i jus cant bring myself to do so. Weird that i don't even dare to do something like that. I dunno, it might be my last chance to see you, but the thought of it just sucks. The thought of not seeing you ever again, i just cant take it.
Even if i did go, i dunno how everything will be like.. Awkward again? A facade?
really miss you, but seeing you again will make me miss you even more.
and so, i run...
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Friday, January 08, 2010 @11:00 PM
i am so damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damnnn damnnnnnn damnnnnnnn damnnnnnnnnnn damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn sad.
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@3:24 PM
Words cant describe how im feeling now.. Must all good things really come to an end? Everything was like a fantasy at first, happily "in love". How i wish nothing changed, and that we were still what we were when we first met. Somehow i regret saying those things i said, if i didnt maybe all these shit wouldn't hav happened? I wonder... if we can still retrace the steps we took..
Even if things must end, why can't ours just be liked the rest, everything seems so awkward now, maybe i should just make u hate me. I know that's being stupid but i can't tank any of these shit any longer. We used to joke about how our "love" can overcome all obstacles, but all that was just talk. Seeing how things are now, its really, really hard to start all over again.
I doubt i will dare to make the first move again. I will just sit here and wonder, if you'll ever understand how much of me belongs to you, because i do..
goodbye is never painful, unless you know your never going to say hi again...
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Sunday, May 17, 2009 @12:47 AM
i guess, its time. time for me to move on.
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Saturday, May 02, 2009 @9:58 PM
seriously i don't know why im wasting all my time away instead of focusing on A levels. i get so pre-occupied with unreleated stuffs which is making me feel so miserable. i should just give up on everything i guess.
i'm not angry because i'm angry, and sad. you use such absolute terms mercilessly. always it shall be then.
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Saturday, April 25, 2009 @12:45 AM
maybe the time is now...
im not trying to ignore you or anything but i just have to. i tried once before but i failed, so im trying it again. the feeling sucks but it cant be help, i just have to endure because it seems to be the best option.
all these while, i never once tried to start anything, all i did was to hope. i knew it would be impossible but i didnt mind, because i once said, your worth the wait. all i ever wish for was for things to remain the way it seems, nothing special. the feeling i had was way better than winning poker or anything and i never did asked for more, i was sastisfied. but i guess its best to make it clear, so that i can stop living in my self-deluding world.
im lost without you.
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Monday, December 29, 2008 @9:22 AM
time is merciless, once past, its over...
there's no return, no second chance
confused at first, reluctant to move on, time got wasted away
its not tat im not making a move or anything, i jus needed time to think.
now that i've thought it through,
ready to take the first step,
you seem to have drifted away.
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